Loose Snippets

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings Loose Snippets

It's one of those times again, i am inflicted with my favorite recurring illness: acute lazy-nitis (very contagious)

i find myself spacing out again, and have to ask the people talking to me, to repeat what they said to me. Too lazy to take any pictures. Too lazy to write. too lazy to blog. (_ _) zzzzz

but just for the record. i will write down some snippets of what i did/ learned over the recent holiday

1.while majority of my friends are busy having their passports stamped, i locked myself inside the house for 3 days. Mushroom mode on

2. Okay, locking inside was not intentional. i decided to challenge the inner chef in me, so i created a dish ( i name it as AoiSoba's Surprise #1). Basically, i opened 1 can of tomato sauce, slice / throw all the vegetables i found on the ref to the pot and let it boil for 25 minutes ( most of the shops are closed and i forgot (lazy) to buy groceries prior to the holiday, so i am forced to do this makeshift cooking). After 3 hours...i got an urgent call from Mother Naycha. Frequent calls actually. Diagnosis: stomach Flu.

3. Someone gave me hong bao. Wheeeeeeee!

4. I went to a flower festival along with Pchan (my powershot cam) to seal the souls of unsuspecting people inside my camera...Nyahahahah! Well, i just want to take pictures actually. I only stayed for less than 3 hours and voila! i got tan lines (-_-). Chili D tried to cheer me up saying i got an instant tan without getting out of country, for some reason it doesn't sounds right!!!


5. Britney shaved her head. Kris and James marriage are on rocks. ;P

6. I got a copy of the album "WIth", now Kunimitsu Tezuka can repeatedly serenade me with his songs.

7. i finished working on some of my gundam model kits. They look like a happy bunch now

8. After watching the "Anthology" series, Rumiko Takahashi has reinstated herself as the best mangaka in my heart.

9. i finished reading "Vita Brevis", alleged letter of Floria Aemelia to Aurel (guess who is Aurel). This document is still subject for authentication. Regardless, I still find it a worth read. The way she weaves her words, will make you ponder for a while. Not for prudes.

10.My amusing bookreview of the week: My ex-housemate called me, she wanted to return the Briony book ( "Atonement" by Ian McEwan) that i loaned to her. She said it was too boring, and her bookshelf is getting bored with that book also (>.<)

11. After having the gall to change my photo in the fwendster, i got a lot of teasing/reactions from my friends. My favorite is: "O kelan ka nagpasex change?"
winner!

12. I have started reading the "autograph man" by zadie smith . Anyone care to share his/her thoughts?

13. My glaring skills is now up with one notch. I manage to make two kids hush up with one "will-you-shut-up" look. Probably,this is one of the reasons i don't have a younger sibling

Fan Day

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings Fan Day

This year i survived Valentines by going out with my friends. It's a pretty common way to celebrate Valentines, right? I may becoming too soft or nostalgic, but i find this valentines quite unique and special on its own.

Well it started with a "am-so-famished" kway teow and chicken wings eating, but take note, we are eating it in a small and dainty portions . Well we managed to clean 1 large plate and 10 wings. :)

Afterwhich we proceeded with the contest proper of for the Golden A award.The talent portion and the Q&A portions were very intense. In the end, Chili A beat all of us. ;P

But what i really like with this kind of sessions, we gripe on things and then we laught at it. We acknowledge it's something that it bother us, we don't try to pretend that it's not there then we dissect it, laugh at it and do the best thing we can, we stand up and move on.

We closed the night with a good plan involving blindfolds and target aiming *ehem*ehem* and walked back with a big smile smacked on our faces.

Their Story

Pulped Fiction Some facts pulped to fiction, just for the heck of it Their Story

I don't like him. The first time i saw him, it made my blood curl.
He is a newbie in the team and introduced to us, i only catched his first name, Ralph.
His feature is strikingly familiar with my ex boyfiend. Especially those eyes. I couldn't shake off the thought that he might indeed be connected with that person.
Since his module is diffent from mine, our interactions was minimal.
Then a few weeks past, a new project is about to kicked off. Ralph and me are owners of one big module. we talked little by little, although he was the one who will always start the conversation. Days gone, we were comforatbly bantering each other, sometimes saving each other's ass and sharing thoughts. Finally, i asked him if he was
any way related to my ex-boyfriend. He confirmed not even by a single blood nor he was friend with the guy.

"Is that the reason you were not talking to me when i was new in the team?" he asked beaming a smile.

I nodded sheepishly.

"Well, i don't know what happened, but whatever your decisions and deductions, i'm with you" he added.

"Touche!" i teased him

THe project went on full roll and it is really taking its toll on us, we're spending more and more time in the office than in our homes. But heck, the whole team were taking it all good. No single one was used as a scape goat , nor got stepped. No playing of favorites, everyone was important.
Of course there are times that my moral was really low, and suddenly i will see a box of fries placed at my side. Lana and Ralph bought it for me, my best buds. And on times that am in the middle of a heated discussion, Ralph will tap me on the shoulder and say "let’s just finish them first, then we'll reply" . And this never failed to cool me down.

One night, my friend Lana and I were busy changing some values in the configuration panel, Ralph came to my area:

"Hey I have a story to tell you guys" he started.

Me and Lana have out mouth open and said "uhmmm....Now?"

"Yeh, i mean, i'll just talk here, you go with what you doing" then he seated comfortably on top of my side table.

We just shrugged our shoulder and continue what we were doing.

Ralph then narrated:
" There was this frail girl who everyday goes to this small book shop, every day she will purchase one book from the store. She does this because she wanted to see the guy who is manning the cashier counter. She likes him so much but she is just too shy to introduce herself. The thing is she doesn't even read the books she bought, she contents herself to buying a book and seeing the guy.
One day, the girl stopped going to the bookshop.Weeks passed and still no sign from her. The guy noticed this and decided to track down her address. He knocked on the door and introduced himself. He got surprised, when the girl's mum told him that she died a month ago. With a heavy heart, he bids his condolence and went off..." Ralph then paused.

Me and Lana, were looking at him , our motions suspended in air and mouths gaped open.

Getting our attention, Ralph continued his story:
"The girl's mum seeing the lad walking away, she felt nostalgic and went to her daughter's room. The room was filled with lots and lots of books, each one of them left unopened from the shop bag.The mum randomly picked one of the books and opened it up, then a small piece of paper flew down. The note in the paper was: 'I like you for a long time now, call me and let's have a coffee' and next to it was the guy's phone number"

Me and Lana were dumbstruck, suddenly Ralph asked us "So what is the moral of the story?"

Lana, blurted out "And torpe ay natsutsugi?" (The gutless will die early?)

I have to laugh, with this tension breaker. But Ralph said "Nah, i think it's that when you have to say something, you have to say it immediately. say it loud. yes, telling your feelings might break your hear but you might also break theirs if you don't tell it. Life is too precious not to spent it with people you like"


and my only reply was " wow! that's deeep dude! way too deep".



Just like the other projects, this one is on the wraps and successfully implemented. The only qualm that we have is that the team will now be re-assigned to other groups. We'll be all now separated.But there was no regret, everyone did their best and proved it.

As project closure, the team decided to celebrate the last day with a party. Everyone had fun and had a litlle drink. The night wears on and everyone now is starting to go home, Ralph approached me.

"Hey dude, i had fun working with you!'
"Me too" I smiled back
"Thanks for coming"
"Of course i will come, it's the team's party"
"No, i mean, really thanks for coming"
I gave him a puzzled look
Ralph, shrugs and said "Oh by the way, here's my small gift to to you" then he handed me a blue diskette.
I gave a small laugh,took the diskette and bid him goodnight.
The next day, i was busy doing my laundry when i suddenly remembered the diskette he gave to me. Inserting the diskette on the PC drive, there was only one text document inside. In the text document, there was only one phrase:"The UAT DOCUMENT"

"Huh?" still curious i rummage at my files and opened the UAT document. I scanned the whole document, still cannot see anything different. I looked back on t he text document,
"The UAT DOCUMENT".

"well I am already looking at it?! what am i supposed to see!" i said exasperatedly.

Suddenly a thought occurred to me: the hard copy. i picked my bag and took out the printed copies of the UAT document. And there on the corner of the last page a note was written: “I love you for a long time now. Please call me and let's have coffee. –Ralph”


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Happy Valentines! :)

Just to stress out: Fiction Only ^_^;

The Most Disastrous Thing

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings The Most Disastrous Thing

Last 28 years ago, the ground shook, the skies darken, the wind turned icy cold and then everyone shivered. The most disastrous thing happened...Eeyuh the penk entered the world.

Happy Birthday, Eeyuh! :P

The "L" word

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts (conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings) The “L” Word

February is here. As an earthling, i think i am allowed to be mushy from time to time.
Sometimes, mush is good...(allow only 5% though) and eating ampalaya is good too from time to time. With the risk of losing face and my mushroom image, i like to blabber a few things on the L-word. Further disclaimer: am not a subject matter expert, i just want to jot down the things i learned so far.


* Sometimes you don't have to look for love; it would come and hit you with a big hammer when you least expect it
Fate likes to tease. When you work yourself hard up to reach for someone, only big hairy
gremlins will parade on your nose. There are even instances, when you are looking good and feeling confident that you are ready to bump to your "target", chances are you won't. But on the days you look like a pork-meat-bun-squashed-under-a train-couch, you will bump into that person. Well, if the person indeed loves you, then he wouldn't mind what you look like then

* Love is a selfish emotion
People don't love because the other person asks to. It's a feeling oneself can feel. No one can make anyone feel anything other what they really feel. Feelings don't lie, they either get accepted or disregarded.


* Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Try not to be too available. Chances are, presence will eventually be taken for granted


* You cannot learn to love a person you don't like
Although, for some people this works, for some it doesn't. If you are trying to learn to love a person, just because your biological is ticking, all your friends are getting married and you are afraid to be alone. Better stop it. It will be just deluding yourself to like the person and it will be unfair for both of you


* It takes two to tango
Learn to compromise, but do not always do the bending. It has to be both ways.


* Love is not pity
Don't love a person just because you feel sorry for them. It's not even love.


* Long distance relationships is always a battle of the wit
Both of you will be faced with the eternal decision to:pin your hope and feeling for that person or to throw it all away for a pair of arms that are within proximity



* Love is not a thing of today only
Loving a person means loving who that person was (You cannot ask the person to get rid his past love or faults) and would be.


* Love is not a thing to fill a gap to feel complete
i still believe, completeness should come from oneself. It will definitely take awhile and the road might be bumpy. if you love a person because there is a need in you (afraid to be left alone, shelved or plain lonely), once that need is fulfilled already, then the 'love' is gone also.The sense of fulfillment has to come from oneself,it can't be found elsewhere


* Sometimes love can be phantom pain
Clinical description of phantom pain,is the pain felt for a missing limb. Sometimes you feel the pain because you lack something, lost something that wasn't initially there. Just take heart to let the phase pass and don't do anything stupidly rash like grabbing the person that will fall into your line of vision.



* love cannot be buried immediately. It just dies a slow death
sometimes, no matter how we like to delete an existence of person in our memory we just can't. You need to face the slow degradation of everything. One need to learn to stand
again and chin up. Remove all the stuffs that will remind that person (even gradually will do), it's the only way to make room for new memories.



* Sometimes it's not good to wait
Don't wait for things to get better. It’ll be totally frustrating after waiting, things didn't get better


* There is a level of likeness and it varies
Since feelings are a qualitative entity, we cannot demand the exact percentage of love to be given to us. A person probably likes to hang with you, talk with you and laugh with you, but it doesn't always mean that that person is in love with you. Probably, you are great friends but will not do as lovers. May i borrow the wisdom of my friend DayOhBee "Pag walang spark, walang spark"


* Love is something you feel and discern
If it is purely feelings, probably it's just an infatuation or you're being a drama queen. But if it'swithout feeling it's just rationalization



* No matter how overwhelming an emotion can be, sometimes it's better not to do anything or say anything
Sometimes, it's better to sit down and think thoroughly of the situation. The embarassment might not be worth it.


* You don't need a partner to love life
I agree it would be nice to have someone to share your love with. But it is also nice to be
alone and enjoy life. The first time we drew breathe, there was already a 50% chance that you'll meet your special someone and 50% that there is just no one for you. Either way, the only point is that don't let your partner or absence of your partner be the reference of being happy in life.


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I ask my friend's mum how is her holiday, (she is visiting her daughter here)

Mum: Oh, it's okay. I went to ChnaTown this afternoon. Chinese must go to ChinaTown winks*

Wakanga! she's one kewl mum :)

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Added one more link/the blog of our fave , beautiful and jaded lil sis: kayanski!


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Dear Chili Prends,
I am already excited about the fan day of Bitter OCampo. As the most voluptuous chili (Epooh) said it: kway teow facing the bay.
Then we can tumble, split, headstand, eggroll sabay nose bleed.

After 15 years

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts (conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings) After 15 years

Today i have a twilight zone experience. I was walking out do some errands when i heard someone calling my name.It took me a while to see who is calling me. It turns out to be my HS crush. (Actually, i didn't recognized him, i have to politely ask for his name.)

I feel like a character inside in my own mind theater playing "what if after 15 years, you meet your crush again"
I didn't have a pleasant memory with this guy, he was wooing me while dating another gal. He got lucky that he graduated without me burning him on a stake.
Now, looking at him, i couldn't remember why i like this guy before. (Okay, i know i am not pretty, but he's so panget.)
Anyway, i'm glad to find out that he's already married and with a kid.

What i don't like is that after 3 hours he gave me a ring and flirting his way to have dinner, to "remisnisce the romantic ol' times". I laughed at him, simply said 'Dream on, there was never 'us' and never would be.Belat mo!' and bid goodbye.

Inhale...Exhale...

Delayed post: Question for 2006

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts (conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings) Delayed post: Question for 2006

Again,again... I will copy Eypooh, Ays and DayOhBee's entry:

1. what did you do in 2006 that you've never done before?
- Travel, not as much but it's a start :)
- Photo Session
- embark on an art enlightenment field trip with the chilis :D

2. did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't have any and do not intend to start one

3. did anyone close to you give birth?
my sis in law! the name is Kahlil Raphael :D

4. did anyone close to you die?
none! Thank God.

5. what countries did you visit?
Pilipinas (lupang sinilangan), Singapura (lupang nagpapakain), Malaysia and Indonesia


6. what would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
- firmer on my decision
- stronger on difficult times
- DIgital SLR :P
- a companion.... pusa :p


7. what date(s) from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- March 1, 2006 - Reason Failed me
- March 3, 2006 - a small miracle happened to me
- Nov 6, 2006 - i made a very impt decision
- Dec 9, 2006 - unang samba sa chili

8. what was your biggest achievement of the year?
- travel
- sum gadgets: ipod, HDD player and HDD
- start my photo folio with P-chan (Powershot cam )

9. what was your biggest failure?
- i should have been stronger and not too understanding

10. did you suffer illness or injury?
Heart aches lang. Chux!

11. what was the best thing you bought?
my p-chan. my travel tixs. the painting in rice paper from Bali


12. whose behavior merited celebration?
mi familia - no matter what i do and say, they are and will always be at my back.
mi amigos/amigas (espesyal: silis, exesies, kiwigirl, cosmocheck, marquisastaroth ) - for not shoving me off the bridge, especially during the whiny days
p-chan - hahaah! it will always try to give me the best shot :p


13. whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
atashi
at isa pa na nilalang este dalawa pala sila... sumalangit nawa :p



14. where did most of your money go?
AoiSoba Foundation sa Pinas

15. what did you get really, really, really excited about?
Going back to manila for a visit :) now it's already been a year and i am getting homesick!

16. what song will always remind you of 2006?
Walang Hanggang Paalam - ay chux!!


17. compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder? happier
thinner or fatter? hahahahah!
richer or poorer? same

18. what do you wish you'd done more of?
more photo-session days. Blog more. more volunteer work. more visits to theater

19. what do you wish you'd done less of?
watch TV, going online, spacing out

20. how will you be spending christmas?
i spent it in singapore with some of my friends who stayed here also.

21. did you fall in love in 2006?
(-_-)

22. how many one-night stands?
nakatayo?

23. what was your favorite TV program?
Kino no tabi, Tsubasa Chronicles, Emma, FiFA worldCUp :D


24. do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i think so

25. what was the best book you read?
for 2006: Atonement - Ian McEwan
but all time fave would be The Prophet - Kahlil Gibran

26. what was your greatest musical discovery?
for 2006: Depapepe, E Nomine
all time fave: Yokko Kanno, Mozart

27. what did you want and get?
new job. travel.

28. what did you want and not get?
okani. pet. jowa.

29. what was your favorite film of this year?
COrpse Bride

30. what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
hahahaha at the office doing OT work!

31. what one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
oh it's the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow

32. how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
wrong person to ask,same old same old

33. what kept you sane?
mi familia.
my books.
my ipod.
mi amigos/amigas.


34. which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Daniel Craig :p
Eypooh

35. what political issue stirred you the most?
subic case. Iraq. Khmer Rouge.

36. who did you miss?
mi familia. Mi Gato , Shampoo.

37. who was the best new person you met?
i met a lot of good friends

38. tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
something to work for, someone to love, and something to hope for.

39. quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
If I just breathe,Let it fill the space between i'll know everything is alright

Fashion Tip

Murmurs Mumblings - MyThoughts (conversation with myself, rants, and more mumblings) Fashionably Correct

This morning at the church, the priest kindly invited the parishioners to the Chinese New Year mass. He added it would be nice if everyone would participate to dress up in red, but he strongly emphasized that do not mix up the red get-up with any green apparel, he doesn't want the parishioners to be looking like a confused christmas tree.

He is Fashionably Correct. Amen.